Today the dreaded "thanks, but no thanks" letter arrived from my latest job search. I have been in the depths of depression now for a few hours about this.
This job search business sucks. It REALLY sucks. I have been going on a series of bad blind dates for four months now. They promise to call back and don't call back. They haven't gotten over their ex, you know, all the intricacies of dating only for money and benefits. But I do feel like a whore right now, not feeling too good about myself at all.
Waiting for a phone call for an interview is nerve wracking. Again, it is the date scenario...will she call, what will I say if she calls, what will I wear? My hair, what about my hair?
Plus, it is such a personal exposure to go to an interview. Trying to sell one's self to people you have never met, in different settings. One interview I went on, they didn't talk. They gave me the list of questions and then I had to perform like a seal.. I was so blown away after that, I had to stop at a friend's house to talk about it. Another bad date, I'd say.
Now I am back to square one. Nothing on the horizon, nothing that looks interesting or pays enough. Minor detail. I feel emotionally and spiritually exhausted from this experience. But then I felt that way going to work every day at the last job. Speaking of bad dates, I was crying every day as I drove into work-I was that miserable.
I guess I just typing at the keyboard in the meantime. I won't stay unemployed forever. There has to be a good date on the horizon.